Spiritual Battle

Spiritual Battle

The enemy threw spears and shot arrows at me
But his weapons fell against my armor, as useless as an unfitting key

His aim turned desperate in pushing every piece of my protective shield
Trying to find a weakness, but it was unrelenting and would not yield

Laughing at his meager attempts I wielded my sword to scare off my enemy
Knowing the power of God would be revealed for all to see

But as my arm lifted in a deafening blow
He saw a weakness begin to quiver and show

The enemy lifted his eyes in a mocking way
Causing my blade to stutter and sway

He began to mimic the painful words from long ago
That I would never amount to anything, that I should just cower and go

He made me feel like I lost the battle before it had even begun
The lies and fear of a failure whose song has not yet been sung

The enemy began to beat me with his dagger-like speech
I dropped to my knees and felt God’s hand out of reach

I begged God to show me a way to break free
But He said that the power and truth was already given to me

With the realization becoming stronger than before
I stood on the Rock, my salvation, the One who knocked on my heart’s door

I saw the truth that in God I find my identity
Not in the failures or the stinging lies of my enemy

I lifted my sword with a new strength that I had ever known
The enemy cowered and fled when he saw the true power shown

Yes, there will be more battles to be won
Resisting the enemy and fighting, but the war is already finished and done

Adventure Time

Adventure Time

I have been so busy with life and falling back in love with food (I once reacted to) that I haven’t taken time to write about these new (and tasty) adventures!
Let us begin with my first job after being sick…

Yep, my first job was away from home! Crazy person here. 
I worked up at Hume Lake (right before they evacuated due to the fire) and made new memories to replace the old ones of when I tried to work when I was sick. Whew! That was a mouthful. If that wasn’t a run-on sentence, I don’t know what is! Hmmm…maybe it wasn’t…meh.
Anyways, I was making milkshakes (while doing my happy dance) and enjoying this fun experience in the “Snack Shop.” Then nighttime came and that’s when the memories came on stronger than sweaty socks on a hot summer’s day…God told me to whip out my Sword (Bible) and fight the enemy’s lies with His truths (by speaking them aloud), but I felt weak, vulnerable, and decided just to try and ignore it. Thankfully my sister and bro-in-law came to the rescue and let me stay those nights with them. They were such a comfort as I finally stood my ground when the enemy tried every tactic to make me believe his lies…or even creating the want to believe those lies. The battle became smaller and the enemy’s words weaker when I brought truth and the Sword out in the open (should’ve done that earlier!).

Here I am at my sister’s place after the first night.
Above is a picture of the smoke (taken in July) from the rough fire.

I never dreamed that I would have another chance to work at Hume but…it happened! Smoke and all, it was a new memory that I have passed while climbing the cliff of life. 
I will hold the “milkshake memories” in my heart forever…

“Milkshake Stain Memories”
Stay tuned for a new post on why we need praying people in our lives…we have friends in this present day spiritual battle…stay tuned…
“Beam me up, Goddie”

“Beam me up, Goddie”

  Some days it feels like you want to say to God, “Beam me up Scottie,” or “Beam me up Goddie.” Okay…that was a bit cheesy.

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The burdens, the tribulations, the trials, the feeling like your trapped in your own body due to illness, and everything else that doesn’t just go as “plan A,” seems to weigh heavy upon your shoulders…and you are wanting the peace of heaven something fierce.
 Instead of God beginning an early rapture, He gave me a realization of what is truly happening behind the chaos and fleshly veil…
 When I continually give up the temptation of escaping reality by dreaming of my perfect world and close the door to the evil one who is trying to lead me astray with thoughts, I was hit on a different side…in a spot that I was very sore. 
 The evil one used those dear to me to bring up past insecurities and hurts that I had as a kid, causing me to draw inward. The wanting to escape reality and go to the perfect picture in my mind was tempting yet again…
No! I would not be snared into this situation again! Instead I’ll ask God to begin the rapture right now…
Hmmm…have I forgotten that I hold the sword of the Spirit in my hand? One battle was won but once the enemy licks his wounds, restores his strength, brings some of his “friends”…there will be a battle yet again. They tried to penetrate my mind yet again but when I refused to do so…they had a back-up plan. Their plan was to make reality so distasteful and unlivable by using those who have been strong and steady in my life, become weak and hurtful in a mind’s-eye. Don’t-get-me-wrong, it wasn’t just their actions that penetrated my armor but the preparation of my own thoughts towards them. 
Do you remember King Theoden from “Lord of the Rings, ” and how he was poisoned by Wormtongue…and how this whisperer-in-the-ear turned him against the people who only wanted to help him? 
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Many times Satan (or one of his minions) will get us worked up about a person by whispering thoughts in our ears. We will get worked up to a point that one little action from said person can make us overreact with our own hurt. Who knows, maybe Satan was beating down your friend/loved one pretty hard and the hurtful words you said to your friend puts him in a lower state. We are all fighting a battle…


Conversation between God and I:
Me: Jesus, is this another reason You went into the mountains? To get a “breather” from those who You called brothers and sisters but knew they were going to hurt You…betray You?
Answer: …and I forgave them.


Well, if that wasn’t a Bible-slap-to-the-face, I don’t know what is!


Here are the steps of forgiveness I went through:
1. Hurt.
2. Thinking back to similar situations where I’ve been wronged by said person (the evil one was a big help with this area!).
3. Realizing that I forgave their past wrongs to me and forbade my mind from holding the past FORGIVEN hurts against them.
4. Forgiving the present hurts and putting the burden of hurt before God.
5. Asking God to close the doors that were open for the attack, and applying the full armor of God on my body (speaking out loud and applying each article of armor to my being).
6. Asking God how I can pray about this situation and how I can pray for the friend/loved one and if I should bring up this situation to the friend/loved one (asking them for prayer).