Do you remember the strange dreams that come at night? The real crazy ones that are sometimes the hardest to remember by morning?
Well, I cannot forget the two that I’ve had in the span of 7 months…
I was in my house when someone was knocking at the front door. I did not answer it for I was too overwhelmed. Why? Because I was filled with such a peace that I had never known before. I had no doubts, worries of life, and no fear but that of a kind that God can only instill.
The man had a beard and shoulder-length brown hair. He had piercing eyes that saw me through the walls of the house and into my room where I was huddled in a corner.
Since I did not answer the front door, the man headed to the back door and knocked again. Sadly, I was still frozen with the powerful feelings inside me. Oh, and what feelings they were! I have had a taste of this peace at the times when I have been on the mountain of life with God (where everything is clear and trusting The Lord comes with ease). Though, this peace was 1,000 times more intense. I look forward to having this feeling again in heaven. ☺️
Have you guessed who this man is? Yes, it is Jesus. 🙂 Though, He was not alone… Jesus had a full-grown horse and a colt. Yes, the older horse looked sturdy and reliable with saddle and reigns (my old life), but the colt was young and free (which represents a new life). Jesus was offering me new life.
But then I woke up.
My thoughts crashed into each other when I awoke from this glorious dream. God translated what the objects meant but not what it was supposed to mean to me. I was frustrated at my “dream-self” for not answering the front door or, at least, the back door! After thanking God for the experience, I demanded an answer from Him for what I saw! Was I not following God in the new life that He has given me?! Did the colt represent a new life being physically healed from my ailments? I did not know…and I did not get my answer until I had a different dream around 7 months later…..WHICH I will talk about in my next blog post.
God picks out different teachings to speak to me every time that I write or tell the story of my dream. So I may update my posts or write new ones talking about diverse revelations that He gives me.
Here are song lyrics from “Mercy Me” that fit how I felt in my dream:
I can only imagine what it will be like
When I walk by Your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see
When Your face is before me
I can only imagine
Surrounded by Your glory
What will my heart feel?
Will I dance for You Jesus?
Or in awe of You be still?
Will I stand in Your presence
Or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing, Hallelujah?
Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine
I can only imagine
I went for a walk this morning on my family’s property. Our backyard is not too big but it is not too small (2 1/2 acres), this area is just the perfect size for us. 🙂
There is a footprint path in the dirt and it is in a complete circle from our constant “strolls.” You could say that we would know this path pretty well, but I put this to the test this morning…
As I was taking each step forward, God and I were having a conversation, and I was wondering what it would be like to COMPLETELY lean on Him. You see, I feel that I am not putting trust in God with some areas in my life. So anyway, I had this “idea” to close my eyes (while I was walking) and let God guide me the rest of the way. I was not putting God to the test, but instead, putting myself to the test to see if I would listen or “chicken out”. This self-test became trickier and trickier as I put one foot in front of the other.
My pace slowed as the fear grew inside of me. I just knew that I was going to run into a tree, a fence, and possibly one of our donkeys, but I continued on. Though there was just one problem…My eyes wouldn’t stay shut! I was used to “seeing” for myself.
Doubt seeped into my mind and many thoughts fought against me. This is foolish. What do you need to prove? Why close your eyes when you can see? You know that you’re going to fall….
I felt exasperated as I continued to try and try…
My eyes raised and I looked sheepishly into the sky. God, I don’t know if I can do it. Help me to trust in You.
Wow. God’s answer painted the picture that I wasn’t seeing. This wasn’t a test at all, it was a lesson.
The path that I thought I knew so well represents life.
The first steps that I took were shaky and slow because I was unsure of God’s ability (sad, but I realize that it was true).
The voice of doubt was the enemy.
My eyes kept opening because I wanting to trust in myself instead of trusting God.
I found out that as I kept trying and trying, I got better and better. Talk about finding God with your eyes closed…I was just happy to find the gate! 😉
It all comes down to this…“Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.” Proverbs 3:5-7