Hi all! I’ve been quiet about my life recently, because there has been a big turn in my health journey…
Deep down I knew that God could be my Healer, but there was something in the way…an area in my life where I didn’t let God in…I read and reread every verse of the Bible on healing; feeling that good health was always out of my reach. I was focused on the struggle instead of the miracle…instead of God. I read every book I could find of people who have experienced God’s miracles (Heaven is for Real, Waking up in Heaven, If God Wants Me Well…, A More Excellent Way to Be in Health, Mysterious Ways Magazine). The thirst for these stories was unquenchable…but what I really wanted was what these stories contained…the God that they spoke of…the Jesus that visited me in my dream (see here for post of my dream).
One day, I had enough of the struggle and was ready for the walk of faith. I was home alone, I fasted and prayed as God revealed areas that I had closed off to Him in my life. I confessed, asked His forgiveness, and then He led me to take the Lord’s supper. With simple unleavened bread and a small glass of wine, I consumed it. Later on, symptoms of past food reactions began to show as the fear of reaction tempted me…but I took this thought captive and told the enemy that he had no more hold on me. The evil one came at me with fear a few times but I used my sword (the Bible).
Enemy: You will have a reaction…look at how sick you’ve gotten just from eating a carrot not too long ago.
Me: I used to have no reactions until fear came into my life. Until my body was physically weak after dental surgery, you came at me with fear and stress. You had me under the bondage of fear…but I am in bondage no longer. You wish to steal, kill, and destroy; God hopes for me to live life and live it abundantly (see John 10:10). He hopes for me to be in health (see 3 John 1:2).
After the enemy failed at that persuasiveness, he went berserk and tried all my different doors. He tried the doors of past weaknesses/struggles/temptations…and as I continued to stand with the Word of God under my hand, I felt him weakening. Soon, he left completely and I had peace and great amounts of joy.
“Neither give place to the devil.” Ephesians 4:27
“Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7
Just like my original picture (above) on “On the Cliff of Life,” I was trying to hold onto all that I imagined life was supposed to be like with everything being under my control. I was torn in two…wanting the life I thought was the yearning of my heart but also craving the greatness of God (which I found out was my true heart’s desire). I knew but didn’t fully grasp the meaning the darkness held of the unknown and the faith or why I drew it (near the bottom of the cliff)…but as I let go and fell into the faith-filled darkness (faith is blind…see Heb. 11:1)…I began to truly grasp God’s meaning for my life (truly amazing!)…and also Satan’s wish for my life (everything that is opposing Christ and all His blessings). Now, instead of hanging off the edge of the cliff…I let go, fell into God’s capable/loving hands and am now climbing the cliff of life. Below is a pic of the drawing of my new journey I am on…
As the cloud disguises the top of the cliff, I am the same in not knowing every detail of my future here on earth…but I know who holds my future and walks before me in every tomorrow. As I climb, I hope in Him. There will be battles with the enemy ahead but I know the war is already one.
“A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps.” Proverbs 16:9
“Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” Matt. 6:34 See also Hebrews 2:14,15
I no longer have reactions to any foods, no more chronic fatigue (have SO much energy), no more brain fog, no more symptoms of MCS and am continuing to walk out of fear…learning to walk in-step with my Daddy in heaven (God).
What do I eat now? I still prefer grass-fed/pasture-raised meats (just tastes SO good), I eat a mostly organic diet (not because of fear of pesticides but due to my own preference), I eat carrots and nuts (things that used to give me horrible reactions!!! Not anymore! Whoop whoop 😃), and am eating everything with chocolate (okay, maybe not the chocolate-covered crickets or scorpions…I’m not THAT in love with chocolate to eat critters in it).
Stay tuned for an update of what I am doing with this new freedom…some exciting things! 😊
Disclaimer: I am not a doctor nor do I hold a medical license. I am just a person who is seeking God and continuing to find Him. If you are ill and are curious about God and His miracles, I reccomend spending time with God, His Word, and a notebook. “Ask, and it shall be given you, seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it will be opened unto you.” Matt. 7:7 If you want encouragement and more help along your health journey, I recommend Beinhealth.com and one of their great books, “A New Song for Marcia.”
Are you anxious today? I don’t know about you, but my mind felt
like it was being played “tether ball” with (bouncing from one anxious thought to another). I tried to ignore it, but I remembered that God has given us the Sword of the Spirit-which is the Word of God to use. So instead of being like one clam that keeps its mouth shut, I am sticking my tongue out like the other clam that gets places! So, BLEH! (That’s the sound of my tongue being stuck out)
Hey, if you’re anxious about the future…there’s a verse for that. Matt. 6:34, Jer. 29:11
If you’re anxious about your past…there’s a verse for that. 2 Corinth. 5:17
If you’re anxious about food…there’s a verse for that. Matt. 6:25, 26
If you’re anxious about dying…there’s a verse for that. John 3:16
If you’re anxious about what you’re going to wear…there’s a verse for that. Matt. 6:28-30
If you’re anxious about being loved…there’s a verse for that. Romans 5:8
If you’re anxious about financial circumstances…there’s a verse for that. Philip. 4:19
If you’re anxious about physical appearance…there’s a verse for that. 1 Sam. 16:7, Psalm 139:14
If you’re anxious about anything…check with the Word, write down those verses, carry them with you, and memorize them. Use your Sword. Speak its words aloud. It will bring comfort to you and stop Satan in his tracks. Ephesians 6:17, Heb. 4:12, 2 Tim. 3:16-17
“Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8
“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.” Ephesians 6:12
Remember, just like sparring, Satan may try to hit you a couple of times with different areas of anxiousness. Just keep your Sword up and ready. Resist the temptation to give into those thoughts and the devil will flee from you.
“Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7
Disclaimer: I am not a certified counselor. I am just speaking from my own experience and in what God is leading me to write as I walk with Him. I recommend diving into the Word and ask God to guide you as you seek Him and the truth. If you feel like you need extra support, please contact a pastor or a Christian counselor to help you along your journey in life.
Something I had to remind myself of…I was tempted to eat out every time I saw a gluten free/organic restaurant while on vacation. I kept thinking back to when I wasn’t sick…when I didn’t have numerous food allergies…when I was able to eat at these kinds of restaurants…memories of coming to this area and eating.
I made puppy-dog-eyes at every menu posted outside. I seriously thought I was “over” the seductive eateries…but this vacation brought back fond memories of eating out around here.
Thank God for my mom who was very supportive of me during this time; I have no idea what I would’ve done without her. 😊
I am going to post what foods I took with me on my vacation while on the Nutritional Balancing Program (in the near future)…stay tuned!
What do you pack on a trip with your food allergies/special diet?
I had a recent dream that used to play itself in my mind…over and over again when I was a kid…here it is:
I was driving a car and the meridian got too close, so I had to swerve and push my foot to the gas peddle to miss it…as I was speeding, I continuously ran through red lights.
👆That’s it? Yup. Sometimes the shortest dreams have the biggest words. Hehe…I’m just glad that there were no cops in my dreams! 😜
This one is a little different than my previous dreams from when I was younger. In the other ones, I was trying to slam on the break but continued to go through the reds. I desperately wanted to stop but the brakes were broken. It felt like my body was beyond exhaustion…but I kept pushing on through the “red lights” it was giving me…this became my normal and I forgot how to stop.
Conclusion: I have more control over my own life now (hence my foot pushing the gas peddle instead of the break-it was my choice) and am still learning to not crumble at the demands of others (even the demands I imagined they wanted of me…and the demands I commanded of myself). Yes, I chose to put my foot on the gas peddle this time but I missed the meridian (stumbling block) in life. I just hope I will recognize the warning lights ahead…
Are you pushing yourself past your body’s limits? Is it giving you red lights? If so, how about finding the “best yes” along with me. Let us not say “yes” to every opportunity that comes our way (for there will be many), but let us take a breather and wait upon God to be the GPS in our cars.