Hi all! I’ve been quiet about my life recently, because there has been a big turn in my health journey…
Deep down I knew that God could be my Healer, but there was something in the way…an area in my life where I didn’t let God in…I read and reread every verse of the Bible on healing; feeling that good health was always out of my reach. I was focused on the struggle instead of the miracle…instead of God. I read every book I could find of people who have experienced God’s miracles (Heaven is for Real, Waking up in Heaven, If God Wants Me Well…, A More Excellent Way to Be in Health, Mysterious Ways Magazine). The thirst for these stories was unquenchable…but what I really wanted was what these stories contained…the God that they spoke of…the Jesus that visited me in my dream (see here for post of my dream).
One day, I had enough of the struggle and was ready for the walk of faith. I was home alone, I fasted and prayed as God revealed areas that I had closed off to Him in my life. I confessed, asked His forgiveness, and then He led me to take the Lord’s supper. With simple unleavened bread and a small glass of wine, I consumed it. Later on, symptoms of past food reactions began to show as the fear of reaction tempted me…but I took this thought captive and told the enemy that he had no more hold on me. The evil one came at me with fear a few times but I used my sword (the Bible).
Enemy: You will have a reaction…look at how sick you’ve gotten just from eating a carrot not too long ago.
Me: I used to have no reactions until fear came into my life. Until my body was physically weak after dental surgery, you came at me with fear and stress. You had me under the bondage of fear…but I am in bondage no longer. You wish to steal, kill, and destroy; God hopes for me to live life and live it abundantly (see John 10:10). He hopes for me to be in health (see 3 John 1:2).
After the enemy failed at that persuasiveness, he went berserk and tried all my different doors. He tried the doors of past weaknesses/struggles/temptations…and as I continued to stand with the Word of God under my hand, I felt him weakening. Soon, he left completely and I had peace and great amounts of joy.
“Neither give place to the devil.” Ephesians 4:27
“Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7
Just like my original picture (above) on “On the Cliff of Life,” I was trying to hold onto all that I imagined life was supposed to be like with everything being under my control. I was torn in two…wanting the life I thought was the yearning of my heart but also craving the greatness of God (which I found out was my true heart’s desire). I knew but didn’t fully grasp the meaning the darkness held of the unknown and the faith or why I drew it (near the bottom of the cliff)…but as I let go and fell into the faith-filled darkness (faith is blind…see Heb. 11:1)…I began to truly grasp God’s meaning for my life (truly amazing!)…and also Satan’s wish for my life (everything that is opposing Christ and all His blessings). Now, instead of hanging off the edge of the cliff…I let go, fell into God’s capable/loving hands and am now climbing the cliff of life. Below is a pic of the drawing of my new journey I am on…
As the cloud disguises the top of the cliff, I am the same in not knowing every detail of my future here on earth…but I know who holds my future and walks before me in every tomorrow. As I climb, I hope in Him. There will be battles with the enemy ahead but I know the war is already one.
“A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps.” Proverbs 16:9
“Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” Matt. 6:34 See also Hebrews 2:14,15
I no longer have reactions to any foods, no more chronic fatigue (have SO much energy), no more brain fog, no more symptoms of MCS and am continuing to walk out of fear…learning to walk in-step with my Daddy in heaven (God).
What do I eat now? I still prefer grass-fed/pasture-raised meats (just tastes SO good), I eat a mostly organic diet (not because of fear of pesticides but due to my own preference), I eat carrots and nuts (things that used to give me horrible reactions!!! Not anymore! Whoop whoop 😃), and am eating everything with chocolate (okay, maybe not the chocolate-covered crickets or scorpions…I’m not THAT in love with chocolate to eat critters in it).
Stay tuned for an update of what I am doing with this new freedom…some exciting things! 😊
Disclaimer: I am not a doctor nor do I hold a medical license. I am just a person who is seeking God and continuing to find Him. If you are ill and are curious about God and His miracles, I reccomend spending time with God, His Word, and a notebook. “Ask, and it shall be given you, seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it will be opened unto you.” Matt. 7:7 If you want encouragement and more help along your health journey, I recommend Beinhealth.com and one of their great books, “A New Song for Marcia.”