I went for a walk this morning on my family’s property. Our backyard is not too big but it is not too small (2 1/2 acres), this area is just the perfect size for us. 🙂
There is a footprint path in the dirt and it is in a complete circle from our constant “strolls.” You could say that we would know this path pretty well, but I put this to the test this morning…
As I was taking each step forward, God and I were having a conversation, and I was wondering what it would be like to COMPLETELY lean on Him. You see, I feel that I am not putting trust in God with some areas in my life. So anyway, I had this “idea” to close my eyes (while I was walking) and let God guide me the rest of the way. I was not putting God to the test, but instead, putting myself to the test to see if I would listen or “chicken out”. This self-test became trickier and trickier as I put one foot in front of the other.
My pace slowed as the fear grew inside of me. I just knew that I was going to run into a tree, a fence, and possibly one of our donkeys, but I continued on. Though there was just one problem…My eyes wouldn’t stay shut! I was used to “seeing” for myself.
Doubt seeped into my mind and many thoughts fought against me. This is foolish. What do you need to prove? Why close your eyes when you can see? You know that you’re going to fall….
I felt exasperated as I continued to try and try…
My eyes raised and I looked sheepishly into the sky. God, I don’t know if I can do it. Help me to trust in You.
Wow. God’s answer painted the picture that I wasn’t seeing. This wasn’t a test at all, it was a lesson.
The path that I thought I knew so well represents life.
The first steps that I took were shaky and slow because I was unsure of God’s ability (sad, but I realize that it was true).
The voice of doubt was the enemy.
My eyes kept opening because I wanting to trust in myself instead of trusting God.
I found out that as I kept trying and trying, I got better and better. Talk about finding God with your eyes closed…I was just happy to find the gate! 😉
It all comes down to this…“Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.” Proverbs 3:5-7